That Negative Vibe: I CANNOT dig it…
Do you ever have those people in your life that you love dearly? They’re so sweet and kind, but they can also be a downer, and tend to be negative? I think we all have those kinds of people in our lives.
These people around you may not realize they’re being negative, but you know deep down inside, they are one big ball of negative energy. And it makes a person like me–who feels this kind of energy–hard to be around others.
Most days I can block them out. Other days, it’s very hard to ignore it. And when I do hear it, I feel like I’ve been jinxed or something. I really can’t explain it.
A good example would be a show you like to watch, but the other person doesn’t watch it nor do they like it. They’ll say something like:
“Well, when I read the paper today, I read they’re going to cancel that show.”
And all you could think is: Gee, WTF did I do to deserve that kind of screwed up response?
I’m originally from New York, and therefore, I’m an Islanders fan (Hey, don’t laugh…They’re actually doing well this year.). But being down in Florida for the past twenty years, it’s kind of hard to be a fan from afar.
No one–I mean, unless you’re rich–can afford to pay for an NHL package of $80 (Or is it $120?) a month. And being an avid hockey watcher, I’ve learned to love another team: The Tampa Bay Lightning.
Why am I a fan? Because 1.) I haven’t been a New Yorker in so long it’s not even funny and even when I visited NY, it was all during the summertime. That’s a time when hockey is not in season.
2.) Tampa is about an hour away from me. I live in the Sarasota area and therefore, I get Tampa games.
So, I’m a Tampa Bay fan…But it doesn’t stop others from stomping on my choice to like them.
“Well, the Islanders beat Tampa Bay twice!”
I’m just like, “So?”
My point is, that stuff just stays with me. I can’t help but to have that stuff stuck in my head. Now I’ve only given examples of unimportant topics, but that’s only because I’d rather not get into the more serious issues I’m dealing with.
I like to keep topics light. I like to have small talk. And I like talking about things and not have to think about the major stuff in life.
When you live with depression, the last thing you need is for someone to tell you what you’re doing wrong with your life. You don’t need them to tell you the choices you make are wrong. And you definitely don’t need to hear an “I told you so” at the end when it does blow up in your face.
So I’ve just learned the power of silence. And I’ve also learned the power to tell others, “It’s none of my business,” when it has nothing to do with me and I’m just telling a story.
I also like to add: “So, how about those Mets?” Hey, I’ll always be a New Yorker at heart. I believe I still have the accent to prove it.
In any case, I say, “Blech!” to negative people. I already have enough crap going on in my life…I don’t need more added to my already worried mind.