Life

Cyanide

 

Underlined at bottom is quote from Romeo and Juliet. ¬†This was part of my prompts for my blog group! ūüôā

 

Tied up with a dog chain, forbidden to chase my dreams, a surprise of pink colors still haunt me through my ever waking moment. ¬†I had one chance–maybe two chances–to have those angelic moments most dream of. ¬†But I got a high dose of the grass is always greener, and I wanted more. ¬†I had gotten my blue surprise. ¬†Why couldn’t I have been blessed with a surprise¬†pink?

In this world, I am meant to be a nothing. ¬†No matter what I wish for, the Universe stops me in every way you can possibly imagine. ¬†It takes all my strength not to…well, you know…on a daily basis. ¬†I take on the weight of the world. I stress out too much and my blood pressure is on the rise.

My blood pressure, on the rise! ¬†Can you imagine that? I’ve always had very low blood pressure. ¬†But not anymore. ¬†Not at least in the past four years now. ¬†I don’t know how to not stress. ¬†I don’t know how to get rid of my fat and ugliness. ¬†Four years ago was a turning point, and now that I’m a year away from turning to an age I’m not ready to turn, I believe I’ll never get that surprise pink dream I’ve always dreamed of.

It doesn’t even have to be a surprise pink! ¬†I’ll settle for another blue! ¬†I fear it may be too late for me. I dream now only of my final breath. ¬†The day when this will all be over. ¬†“Is it e’en so? Then I defy you, stars!” ¬†I’ve tried to go with the flow of the Universe. ¬†Every time I go against it, it never turns out right. ¬†But then again, here I am going with the flow, and it’s still not right. ¬†I give up!

Written by ©Diana Jillian 8/2/16


DJ

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